To this point, I have felt very pleased with my decision regarding my surgery and I have been extremely open about it. However, I find myself in a new challenging position. In this situation, I feel embarrassed, uncomfortable and modest.
The locker room. I am now coaching swimming at the local YMCA and with that employment, I get a family membership. I decided Friday that I was going to take a mid-day class and shower there to be ready for a formal celebration afterwards. Everything was all fine and dandy until I had to shower in a large room with a bunch of naked women. As a former swimmer, this would not phase me in the least; until now. Sans areolas (funny, spell check doesn't recognize this as a word), I clearly look different. I get noticeable stares. I find myself rushing and covering and cowering to hide my scars. I find myself embarrassed. Not ashamed, but definitely uncomfortable and not open to discussing my surgery with strangers while naked.
For the first time in 2 year, the 2 years since my surgery, this situation has me baffled. How do you deal with this? The obvious answer is getting nipple tattoos. But I don't want that. I want a mastectomy tattoo, and I have one scheduled, but in the meantime. How would you feel if you saw someone without nipples in a locker room?
3 years ago
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